I believe I have discovered a brand new level of boredom. I'm beyond snacking because I can't find anything to do, I flew past watching TV shows that aren't very good and I even surpassed pacing. I'm so bored that I find myself wishing I had more laundry to do or dishes to wash so that I had anything to do. I'd even take a job I hate at this point. I need more things to do, or less time in each day to fill, or less restrictions, or a car, or unlimited amounts of money to spend. I would appreciate help with any of these things.
I've been watching movies, reading books, going for walks, helping keep the house clean, rehabbing my hand, taking the dog for walks, filling out applications, doing phone interviews and shopping for a new car online, but it's not enough. I could use twice as many activities.
I've been home for about three weeks now and my recovery has been going better than I could have imagined. I'm walking long distances, going up and down hills without any real problems and I haven't taken any painkillers in almost 10 days. I am thrilled with how smooth this recovery has been, but I am desperate to feel even better. With my current restrictions I'm allowed to walk. I can do stairs but not too many and I can do hills, but I need to be careful of getting my heart rate too high. I'm also still not allowed to lift more than 10 lbs. I can't even pick up my sister's tiny dog. He's tips the scales at almost 15 lbs and is beyond my limits.
Since I sold my car while I was still living in Korea I no longer have any means of transportation. My sister goes to class and then work until around 5 p.m. every day and my mom works full time as a first grade teacher. So, I can go anywhere I can walk to, but I can only bring along 10 lbs of stuff (or pick up 10 lbs of stuff from where ever I walk to). I need to buy a car and I'll do it eventually, but I need someone to take me on the weekend when they have time. Being dependent sucks.
I have some plans in the works for the near future, but they won't start until January at the earliest so I have a few more months to fill in the meantime. I should get a car in the next few weeks and I have a check-up coming soon that should lift some of my restrictions so I will hopefully have a few more freedoms soon. I'll be able to go hiking (at a reasonable pace) or for short car trips. I'm also planning on visiting my Grandma down in Florida soon. I want to start cardiac rehab as soon as I'm able as well so that I can start getting in shape again and open up a few more activity doors.
I have activities and opportunities coming, but in the meantime I spend too much time on the couch in front of the TV with an adorable little dog sleeping next to me (that's the setup as I write this actually). They say good things come to those who wait and I'm waiting. I don't even care if good things come my way, I just want things to come my way. Anything. Please.
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